reblog for good things to happen to you
the universe will listen
i feel so selfish feeling the way i do, because i’m hurting. but is my hurt even valid? compared to the person who is hurt by my choice? i’m not sure if i should be allowed to hurt for making a choice that hurt someone else. but i do and i can’t help it and i hate it. i try to remain content, try to cheer them up, try to get them to smile again, try to bring out the real them again, but if feels wrong, like after hurting them that i’m trying to make them forget the pain i caused. it’s selfish, i’m selfish but i don’t know what to do, how do you fix something you won’t change? how do you defend the decision you made without causing more suffering? i feel like this awful terrible person, i feel such a twist in my stomach whenever anyone says anything nice about me because i feel like a fake, like i’m not this person they think is so nice and amazing, when i feel rotten and toxic. i don’t understand how they can still love me and see this wonderful person, when i’ve poisoned and ruinined them, i feel like i’ve fucked up their entire life.
i hate how i’m currently functioning. it’s not healthy at all. i’m on autopilot everyday, tired and going through the motions. and then when i’m faced with anything remotely troubling for me, i shut down. because i know if i don’t that i’ll start feeling too much, because nowadays my emotions have become too hard to handle. i hate being sentive and on the edge of a break down everyday. it feels so selfish and pathetic, because i know someone else is also suffering for my choices. i can’t even listen to them express their hurt without not knowing what to say or do to make it better, because i made choice that has hurt them, and nothing i say will fix it because i haven’t changed it. so i just sit and can’t even reply back because now i’m trying to deal with my own stupid feelings and keeping from crying and it’s so selfish feeling to do that, when they’re hurting too. i just feel really fucked up.
Tom Holland does Rihanna’s “Umbrella” on Lip Sync Battle
I’m literally zendaya reacting like he didn’t have to go that hard and yet..
every time i watch this when the reveal hits and he starts dancing i’m like “oh ok that ain’t a big deal he’s just another celeb doing a gimmick” but somehow by the end of this video without fail i am filled with respect for him and zendaya for being like…a powerful gen z couple who both give off chaotic bisexual vibes
i think it’s the irreverence with which he splashes the water
that was a classic that was a classic
It’s a good time to remember that Tom Holland is a trained dancer and that initself is a gift
He’s trained in ballet, too, which is what makes this even funnier. I saw a video (also with Zendaya in it) of him doing like, fifteen fouettes in someone’s basement. GET A MAN WHO CAN DO BOTH.
I FOUND IT!!
